Friday, February 18, 2011

This One'll Be a Doozy

 I have to admit, I wasn't looking forward to this FBFF topic. This isn't a direction I originally wanted to go with this blog because I wanted to be all happy and show you cute pictures of my kid and talk about clothes and what's on TV.  Plus, I want to put my best foot forward for you guys.  But I just got on the FBFF bandwagon, and I didn't want to jump off, so here we go...

I always thought as you got older, you became more self-assured and not care what others think. I'm not quite there yet. I've been an adult for 10 years now, and I'm a mom, but I definitely do not have myself all figured out. Maybe someday!

1. Since you started blogging has your image of yourself changed?
I only started blogging this month, but I s'pose my image has started to change a little. Taking pictures of myself has probably only made me more critical. Hopefully in time, it'll also help me realize my progress (assuming I do lose this baby weight) and give me encouragement.

2. Are you self-conscious about any aspect of yourself? If so, do you
go out of your way to avoid it or do you post it/talk about it anyway?

I'm self-conscious about my weight and height, but I talk about both all the time. One topic I sometimes want to write about but completely avoid is my social awkwardness, which is related to my poor self image and also caring too much about what other people think.  Although people I meet probably figure it out pretty fast, I don't want to bring up the fact that I'm not good at one-on-one conversation, or that I'm absolutely rubbish at small talk (I'm hoping putting a British spin on it will make it more light-hearted). I wish I could bring games like Taboo or Pictionary and one glass of wine with me wherever I go because I feel most relaxed when I'm playing fun games with people...and/or when I have one adult beverage in me.

3. Based on how you are feeling now, what do you think the future
holds in the evolution of your body image?

Well, since I'm doing Weight Watchers, I'm hoping my body image will get better, but I've always been pretty critical of myself in that regard. When I look back at pictures of myself from years ago, I realize how decent I actually did look, but it's always retrospective. I don't think I really realized it at the time because I've always had this apparently unattainable goal weight in my mind.

4. Do you photograph yourself for your blog? If so, how do you feel
about the experience when you're having your picture taken? If you
choose not to post pictures of yourself, what prompted that decision?

Sometimes I do photograph myself for the blog. If it's to show off an outfit, I take my own pictures. Although I did ascribe to be a model once upon a time, posing for the camera is kind of awkward for me. If I were a model, I'd prefer to just walk the runway all the time.

And the reason I don't ask my husband to take the pictures is illustrated in conversation we had tonight:
Him: What are you doing?
Me: Taking pictures.
Him: Of what?
Me: Myself for my blog.
Him: Why?
Me: Because that's what people do.
Him: They're all stupid.  Don't do it.

Haha.  Lemme clarify.  He thinks I should have a blog, but he doesn't understand the outfit of the day thing.  Oh well!

5. What would you want every person who struggles with body image to take to heart?
Haha, am I supposed to give myself advice now? Someone in my situation who recently had a baby, I would remind them (and myself) that it took 9 months to put on the weight, and it'll potentially take 9 months to lose it. So chill.


  1. Love this post and love your dress.

    I too am totally self conscious about my body image and its not about the baby weight for me. I have always been a heavy person and growing up in a family that lived off of junk and now having a husband that eats junk doesn't make it any easier to try and change things. S is completely supportive of me changing my habits and losing weight, however it is difficult because what I want he cant always have do to his CD.

    This is one reason why I have brought this struggle into my blog not only is it a total mommy thing, but its who I am. I also did it because I need the extra support to follow through with this.

    You can do it!

  2. this was a tough FBFF for me too! i am totally with you on #2! i too am very socially awkward and have trouble with one on one conversations. bring on the glass of wine though! that always helps. and VERY true about the baby weight. it takes time, and your body will never be the same as it was before, but you can and will lose the weight! just be patient and stay positive and enjoys that little baby of yours! :)

  3. Great job with this post. I'm completely with you on number one - blogging has definitely made me more critical of myself.

    I really struggled with the FBFF also. Like you, I'd like to keep my blog more light-hearted (I'm aiming for funny, but haven't quite reached it yet), but I do struggle with my body image and didn't want to pretend I didn't.

  4. Love the outfit! That dress looks great on you.